Amidst the misty tides, and the Sentinel song.

My ear­worm du jour …

While it was at first the melody that caught my atten­tion and made me shim­mer a lit­tle on the inside, when I final­ly got around to read­ing the lyrics I real­ized all of a sud­den that this has pret­ty much been an anthem for the past few weeks.

On the whole I don’t like to talk about myself (be it online or offline), and I tend to keep my life pret­ty much self-con­tained, but what’s come my way this fall and win­ter is dis­heart­en­ing. If I could say what I want­ed to in this place, it would prob­a­bly be shar­ing far too much as it has lit­tle to zero rel­e­vance here, and would prob­a­bly stand lit­tle chance of falling in help­ful hands.

And that brings me to the crux of the mat­ter (par­don the pun): the rel­a­tive calm of going for­ward in spite of this. Some of the things I’ve been through over the past decade are sta­tis­ti­cal­ly things that most peo­ple don’t typ­i­cal­ly begin to see until their late 40s and 50s. It’s frus­trat­ing to have to run silent and deep on mat­ters and not real­ly have many I can con­nect with, but it’s also because there are so few my age who’ve expe­ri­enced any­thing similar.

So here’s to Sen­tinel and here’s to bet­ter days ahead.

I’m not mak­ing any­one any promis­es that this is the start of some grand online project or any­thing, but I’ve felt for some time that giv­en I have my own domain, and giv­en I have YT and oth­er media chan­nels and resources, it would be nice to start some­thing as an out­let and get back into being more cre­ative, because even when the world’s at its worst, it’s pos­si­ble to keep on mov­ing as long as there’s some­thing fun to do.